Today is the day. I posted yesterday because I didn't think I'd be able to post today. But, somehow, today, I'm OK. The emotions from yesterday have passed. I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little sad. But, it's not like yesterday. It's more of a nagging- in- the- back- of -my- mind sad. Just enough emotion to remind me that a year ago today was a very bad day. I had actually gotten better by last night. Michael had a softball game and on the way home from that I was laughing and singing along with the radio. He thought I had lost my mind. I told him. "Leave me alone. I've cried all day. I'm tired of crying."
Today, I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of letting diabetes dictate how I feel. I woke up this morning and one of the first things I thought is, "you have a choice to make". I'm a firm believer that most people are as happy as they let themselves be. Baring any chemical imbalances, we all decide how we are going to react to certain situations and how we are going to let situations or people make us feel.
Today, I cannot change the past, but I can look forward to the future. A future, not with complications, but with new technologies and possibly a cure.
Today, I am thankful for all the blessings that I have in my life. I have a roof over my head, food on the table, 2 beautiful boys, and a loving husband.
Today. my son has had diabetes for one full year.
Today, I'm at peace with that.