I went back to work today. That first day back from vacation is the worst.
But, I'm here and I have so much to write about. Yet, I can't bring myself to write. I want to, I really do.
School starts in 2 weeks. That's the main thing. But, I can't write about that now. Because, in order to write about it, I would have to think about it, and I just do not want to think about it.
I don't have my head in the sand. I'm doing what I have to. I'm getting a notebook together for the teacher. I'm doing what I can to prepare Riley for school. But, I haven't mentally prepared myself for it yet.
Every time I think about it a panic rises in my chest. I quickly think of something else just to make that sense of utter dread disappear.
In short, I'm not doing well with Riley starting school. Any prayers and well wishes are greatly appreciated.
And, one day, before school starts, I'll sit down and write about my emotions. But, not now. There's too much to do. And, I just don't have time for a breakdown.