Monday, August 13, 2007

Back to Work

I went back to work today. That first day back from vacation is the worst.

But, I'm here and I have so much to write about. Yet, I can't bring myself to write. I want to, I really do.

School starts in 2 weeks. That's the main thing. But, I can't write about that now. Because, in order to write about it, I would have to think about it, and I just do not want to think about it.

I don't have my head in the sand. I'm doing what I have to. I'm getting a notebook together for the teacher. I'm doing what I can to prepare Riley for school. But, I haven't mentally prepared myself for it yet.

Every time I think about it a panic rises in my chest. I quickly think of something else just to make that sense of utter dread disappear.

In short, I'm not doing well with Riley starting school. Any prayers and well wishes are greatly appreciated.

And, one day, before school starts, I'll sit down and write about my emotions. But, not now. There's too much to do. And, I just don't have time for a breakdown.


Shannon said...

The anticipation can be unbearable.

Hang in there.

Vivian said...

Penny, That son of yours is a special little man. He will do awesome. Please know you are not alone in your emotion, I still get sideways before the start of a new year. We are here when you are ready.

Heidi said...

My son was 4 when he was diagnosed - I was so fortnate that he was in 1/2 day pre-school at the time. The nurses helped me out so much, and continue to do so to this day (2.5 years later, different nursing staff, but still so helpful). It's hard sometimes to get the teachers to understand what to look out for, but they will get it. It's to the point now where I look forward to him being in school :) That said, I do know how hard it is - good luck to you!

Anonymous said...

Penny, My son was 23 months old when diagnosed. He's 9 now. It's a tough road, but we can do it! The school will be supportive, it's their job. A 504 plan can help make your wishes clear. Lots of communication between you and school will make a huge difference. Best of Luck!

Carey said...

Right there with ya, Penny. We are also nervously preparing.